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Today I delved back into the wild and (sometimes) wonderful world of temporary employment.  I'm working in the Investor Relations department at a small finance firm.  So far so good; most of the guys were out of the office for at least part of the day, and one did not come in at all, but I met most of the team and they seem like nice guys, low key considering.  I find it kind of amusing that I've heard Investor Relations described as the personable types (majority female) that let the nerdy money guys do what they do, but I'm working for 5 guys and only 1 woman.  It's a straight temp placement, so I'll be moving along in a couple of weeks and then we'll see how the next place is.

The last two weeks, I've been cleaning my apartment from top to bottom, and going on lots of interviews; mostly for placement agencies, but I went to a couple for actual jobs that so far haven't turned into anything.  We'll see.  I'm sure that my best chance of finding another job is temp-to-perm; I've found a couple of jobs that way, and with the economy being still kind of in the tank, it stands to reason that companies want to get a better idea of how you actually work before extending benefits, etc.  Luckily I am in a flexible field being an admin, so as long as I find the right fit I will get a job.  People always need assistants.  

The bad thing about searching now vs. my last job search is that the type of position I want, combining some assistant work with Office Operations type work, seems to be very scarce.  Also, last time I interviewed for a couple of straight Office Manager positions but I didn't feel I was ready for that.  Now I feel ready, but the jobs aren't there.  One of the recruiters said that the back-office people are being cut more often because those departments don't bring in money, and positions are being combined.  Which leads me into the realization that many OM positions have been folded into HR, and I don't actually want to work in HR.  Nor do I really want to work in straight facilities management, although some of those jobs still seem to be around.  

Pretty soon, I'm going to have to decide what I want to really do in terms of a corporate career; if I want to go the Executive Assistant route and scrap all of that Operations work I like doing so much, or move into a different industry so that I can keep on with the OM plan.  I've also been looking into doing the Event Planning career change I wanted to do 2 years ago, but those jobs are even more scarce than they were then, and the pay scale is different so it would be a step backwards.  I do understand that you often need to take a step back when you change careers, but that doesn't mean I'm eager to do it.  It all bears a lot more thinking over.

Why, God; why?

I wasn't here 2 hours before my boss forced me into her office to yell at me for 45 minutes.  I got so upset, I made an appointment with the two guys who work over her, to tell them that she'd reported that they had concerns, and I wanted to get more detailed feedback directly from them, so I could improve myself.  At which point they both looked at me like I was insane, and told me what a great job I was doing, and how they both appreciated all of my hard work for the company.  One of them actually said "In 3 years, I have never had anything but good to say about you".  The other said there was a concern, but it was so minor that even he thought it was silly to worry about it, and it was his concern.

In other words, I spent almost an hour getting screamed at and belittled because my boss felt like doing it, not because I did anything at all wrong.

So, I sat here for at least 20 minutes, and poured my heart out.  I touched on my work frustrations, my feelings of creative suffocation, the upcoming traditional sporting event, and my writing and the path it's taken in the last two weeks, and how I feel like I'm deserting my fans at the moment with my complete inability to be in any way creative or organized.

Livejournal deleted it all, then recovered a blank page.

I have no clue why that happened.  And it's really kind of 'grrr' making.  But, let's face it, it wasn't interesting to anyone other than me, anyway.  So, no great loss.  Not that I think anything else here is really fascinating, but, you know.

So, I'm just gonna go find something else to do, now.  More later, since this is one of the few things I can write at the moment.